I feel like i don’t deserve to be here right now, but I promised to a friend that I wouldn’t do anything stupid and I don’t brake my promises. its so hard not to die right now. I don’t know what to do.
You are doing the right thing by reaching out and asking for help. Depression is very painful, but it is treatable. Have you seen a doctor yet? That is a very important step in getting better. Depression is a medical condition and there are many effective medications for treating it. Therapy can also be very helpful in many cases. It can help you understand situations in your life that may be contributing to your depression and give you skills for coping with them. What you are feeling right now does not have to be a permanent condition. Don’t lose hope that you can feel better than you do right now.
As you battle your depression, in addition to getting treatment, it is very important to form connections with other people who can provide you with emotional support. It looks like you already have that in your friend so you are very fortunate. It’s clear that your friend loves you and values your friendship a lot. I would also recommend visiting our chat room and talking with people. Everyone here has gone through just what you are going through so they will be able to understand how you are feeling. Many people here have also learned how to manage their depression and can give you advice about how to hold on until you start to feel better. The important thing to know is that we care and are here for you when you need us.
Feel free to keep posting here if you need more information or have any further questions.